Like Children do

So in the recent turn of events, which consists of me graduating from masters and being an adult and having no idea what the heck im doing i began to think about something, actually kind of wish for something. I wish I could have been a child just once. I was forced to grow up way to fast with no family behind me no fantasies to take me out of where i had to live. Maybe if I had a child hood just once things would be easier now cause i could go back there and remember when things were safer...but i cant so all i can assume is the following

I wish I was a child again so i could love anyone at anytime not holding anything back.
I wish I was a child so i had no reason to doubt anything and could belive the world was mine.
When we were children everyday life felt so new, we could create and dream and imagine and exist in world with no boundries.
I would like to think if i was a child again my heart wouldnt hurt the way it does now
And I would hope if i were a child again i would look forward to the beggining of the day and not the end.
If i were a child a best friend would be there always, invisible or not, and if i were i child again illd never be alone.
You wouldnt be able to make me believe what i wanted was impossible if i were a child
And boys would still have cooties and dirt would be fun!
If i could live as a child i could be brave enough to fall and when i would fall there would always be someone waiting to catch me.
If i was a child i could cry and not pretend to be strong, cause the most comforting thing would be to be vulnerable and soft in someones arms
if i was a child i wouldnt know enough of the world to hate who i am, or who i was
In a childrens world theres no judgement no pain
but then we grow up and we become exposed
everything we encounter stifles us or helps us grow
and i feel so stuck in this place "adult"
if i could go back i would never grow up cause this is not where i want to be now