1/2/2010

“Down in the human heart / Crushed by the tempter / Feelings lie buried that grace can restore.”

Sometimes I wonder in the chaos that is my relationship with God is it possible to have irrevocably screwed up. Have I wandered to far. Have I fallen to hard too many times. Where does God’s grace end. Am I the reason for my own inability to feel and to know and to grow. If so if I have fallen to hard for to long than how is my heart restored without going backwards and how is my faith renewed without starting from the beginning.


"My hands never left you, my love is never less
And you find yourself weak again and ill always give you strength to restore your faith in me
Your not slipping backwards or running away your just less free when you don’t rely solely on me
And I want to help you I will never leave you here I will never leave you stuck
But you keep trying on your own and I cant force myself to be enough
And you being weak being broken is the most beautiful thing
When you turn around look up and look down and not a person for you to run to
its my hand you can always find reaching out to you
Why do you keep fighting a fight that isn’t for you to win
Im waiting for the moment you realize and give in
When you give in to believing that my grace can be earned
And give in to believing that a relationship with me is something that can be learned
As you break I replace the old tattered parts of you
Cant you see that every time you fall it’s a chance for me to heal you
I want to prove my love but I need you to believe
Believe that when I take my hands off you its for your heart to see
To see what its like without me that its not worth the pain
It may be lonely and you may have to wait
And waiting may get tiring and when your tired you’ll lose your strength
But when you fall I meet you there and you’ll be cushioned by my grace
Stop trying stop reaching stop striving and let go
To answer you my child have you or will you ever gone to far?…No" - God