Maybe if you heard me scream

I cant feel and I cant sleep, I cant write I cant eat.
And im desperate and longing lonely and scared
I don’t know direction and I fear your no longer there
Like you’ve left me with my thoughts my lies and foolish heart
And the tears they choke me before they hit the floor and im searching but I don’t even know what Im looking for
But what happens if I give up what happens if I just let go
Cause ive searched everywhere and I don’t know where to run anymore
And im just tired so tired of this emptiness, of this loss
Theres a big hole in me, and it makes a hollow sound
I don’t want to live this way alone and afraid
I just need to breathe I just need to see
And who are they them who did this to me
Left me blinded, drowning me
And sometimes its just hard, sometimes it just is
And I need that comfort I just do, I need you.
I don’t even remember the joy, the freedom of your life
Caught in the suffering, taken out by the grief
God I don’t know who this is but I know its not me.
I don’t hang my head, I don’t give up.
I don’t ever just give in to being stuck
So why have you left me here in this place
Where is my heart, what happened to safe
I know theres more, I know theres hope
But I don’t have the strength to open my eyes
And ive lost the compassion to love
Rescue me from these aching knees.
And maybe if you heard me scream